It's not as if I wasn't expecting this to happen soon but I finally actually banned *myself* from the house_cuddy comm... good riddance.

I also managed to apply to courses at school and people around me generally think I have swineflu. But don't worry I don't. All the coughing makes me cranky, tho.

I think that's about it. Hope you're alright f-list.

Oh. My. God. I don't want to be rude but I think the new house_cuddy layout is horrible. It's pink. How am I supposed to read it? It hurts my fucking eyes!!!!!!!! I'm not questioning the amazing editing skills of the maker of the banner but a pink layout??? Jesus H. Christ! PINK. GAH. LIKE A FUCKING NURSERY. But you know tastes differ and all that jizz and I'm not a nazi to force my opinion on everyone but it physically hurts my eyes. It keeps me from reading the community itself! Well, all the better, some would say...

Why do people have to be mean on the internet?
And why do I have to go to university?
And why do I have to be so pathetic and weak and basically just incapable of doing anything right ever?
I really want to kill myself now. What's the point of living if there wasn't a single productive thing you ever did in your life?
I don't know what to do. I'm just so useless. I hate myself. I want it to be over.

Have I mentioned I fucking love livejournal?

Just yesterday I thought I'd break my rule of not reading any slash fanfic that includes characters of a show who are really really really not slashy. To be precise: J.D. and Cox from Scrubs. So I'm like... if I put jd_cox into google surely NOTHING will come up. Because how random is the phrase jd_cox? It isn't even a phrase it's just a jumble of letters and a _. Boy was I wrong.

The first site that came up was the J.D./Cox comm on lj. I found that totally epic and forgot about the way I found it. But just now I was watching CSI and Nick and Greg were in a scene together that wasn't even slashy AT ALL. But I was like... I'm gonna just test this little theory I developed last night. I put it into google and there the fuck it is. The nick_greg community.

SHOW ME A PAIRING THAT DOESN'T HAVE AN LJ COMM. IT MUST BE THE LAMEST PAIRING IN THE WORLD. SRSLY.

Nonononononononononononononononono. NOT. AGAIN.
How I hate fandom. I really just fucking hate it. I GOT INTO A FUCKING PATHETIC WANKERY CATFIGHT AGAIN.
Sure fandom is full of lovely people but really, they just don't make up for bullshit like this.

I'm getting out of fandom again. I promise. Come next september I'm done with the community. With spoilers, foilers (I don't even know what the fuck those are), fucking writers (I don't ever want to know what writer wrote what House episode again - I DICK ON THE FUCKING WRITERS), promos (for all the Huddy fans... WHO SUCKED IT) whatever. JUST. DONE. WITH. IT. I'm tired of these stupid little games of pulling each other's pigtails and then playing mommy and telling everybody off.

Fandom. is. ridiculous.

The American Apparel size chart does lie big time! Fortunately I decided to buy the smaller size WHICH FITS LIKE A DREAM. NBCUNIVERSAL and FedEx on the other hand are most honest, it seems. I love the both of them. And I'm probably the happiest person in the world at the moment. Cheers! :)

I Hate My Life.

ajj annyira bennem van egy huddy fic de egyszerűen nincs erőm megírni bazzeg pedig kurvára bennem van. ahogy egy taxisofőrről olvastam a gun sellerben eszembe jutott vmi nagyon feelinges téma de most már kurvára le vagyok fáradva és nem fogom tudni megírni ma holnap meg lehet hogy már nem lesz meg az ihlet borzalom. le kell feküdnöm nehéz lesz a holnap :(:(:(:(:( kék mutatott valami spanyol őrületet kurvajó kb radiohead http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KG2Hw9E3nqk írtó jó najó megyek mert kifordulok a saját számon ásítás közben de bazzeg. MEG KELL ÍRNOM. ÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁÁ

bazzeg marisa tomei van a ments meg-ben. <3

I had to look up some of them in the dictionary, because being a devoted ateist, I don't know what the seven deadly sins are. So I'm most likely to commit, because I've already done so...

Sloth - all the way. I only know a small number of people who avoid work more efficently than me but they are at least resourceful in the way they avoid work, so props for them.
Greed - well I certainly love money, have very little money and would do a lot of thing for money. But I also would love to share that money if I had it so I don't know where that leaves me.
Lust - <3.
Gluttony - I can't say I eat too much. I love good food and I love to prepare it. But I don't eat anything and everything without thought.
Anger - I can send my best friend to hell in a few sharp, colorful words and regret it immediately. I'm most likely to commit this sin and I'm very sad about it.
Envy - this too. Seriously. I'm. Going. To. Hell. I'm very keen on envy and talking shit about people I envy but I also feel how pathetic it is so I think that's punishment enough.
Pride - I don't overdo that. I think pride is important and it's not sinful. You can be proud in a hurtful way towards others but being too humble and refusing credit for the hard work you've done is just stupid.

I think I commit 4 out of 7 on a daily basis.

Real life = school and my health are a nightmare. Maybe I'll elaborate about it later. But now I promised some icons for luciddreamer326 . They are from the time when Melina, Carmine and Hill from CSI:NY were in ET's photobooth. They are not so good but they make up for that with cuteness!!!

( Enjoy! )

I'm starting studying for tomorrow's exam. Just now. Lol. Anyways it's my last exam so I really need to pass. No more opportunities. Also rewatching House S2 because I just realized I haven't seen the best episodes ever before. It really is fitting since some of them are about Cuddy trying to get preggers and now she has a baby omg!!! See how far we've come?

I just saw the new promo pics and my heart just melted. I don't know what to say to people who are going to stop watching the show because of the Huddy situation. YOUR LOSS. I never stopped watching this show, how could I? There are things they could do to fuck it up until it's unwatchable but *THIS* is not that. What's the matter with House holding a baby? It doesn't have to be cheesy. But he's not going to throw it away and spit on it for good measure just because he's not into humanism and his code dictates to hate babies. Pff. And honestly? I hope he does Cuddy. Even if it's just sex. It's about time! He's been admittedly fantasizing about her for years now. I love House enough to want him to enjoy himself, L O L. So suck it up. And about Cuddy loosing her character: OMG so true. :/ :/ I've been noticing that too... I don't know how her personality will take shape in the next few episodes, cooing over a baby is not a problem, that's natural but I think she's been a bit too desperate especially towards House in some recent episodes and I didn't like that. Maybe having the baby will put her life back in line personality wise. About Cameron and people thinking she's going to be so cool leading the hospital. IDK am I the only one who read the Ausiello spoilers about her fucking up royally? It's so obvious! Well hope dies last.

Apropos sucking it (up)........ I had a disturbingly detailed dream last night about giving fellatio to Robert Sean Leonard. I don't feel good AT ALL about it. I feel BAD. And DISTURBED.

I just can't believe myself. I let my feelings run rampant and at a moment of weakness I've become fandom WANK. CHRIST! I don't want to humiliate myself further so I won't explain it, some of you know what I'm talking about. That's why I never ever participate in fandom. I always end up making an arse out of myself. Why am I always the one stumbling into the biggest beehives all over the place? I have a sixth sense for butting in at the worst moments. I keep telling myself that I'm above all this and I don't care if someone who doesn't even know who I am talks e-shit about me behind my e-back but... I actually do! ARRGGHHHH... Oh just... FUCK OFF!!!!!!!! *fumes* So anyway I don't know what I was thinking posting wank in the commuity. I lost my mind. I did. Enough of that. Arguing on the internet is like paralympics. Even if you win, you're still retarded.

I don't know why lj has such stupid layouts for the poor like me. I usually prefer darker ones but only this dj one suited my color needs. Wtf dj. I'm also refreshing my icons because they are lacking appropriate ones fot he aforementioned community and Bob Downey.

I thought I'd calm myself watching Maybe Baby but I already did that this week, so I put in 'Who do you think you are?' including Stephen Fry. I console myself with the fact that he is actually part Hungarian. Big part. We rule. Haha. Also I should be watching bad Hungarian movies for the exam on Thursday. I'm not. I don't know why anyone would be interested in reading my lj but alas I'm back.

It's my birthday today and half an hour into it I got my first present. Also the best present evarrrrrrrr!!! Thank You so much Honey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


By the fanfuckingtastic kashmir87 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3<3<3

Gift tips:
Nine Inch Nails DVDs
House DVDs - hungarian
QAF DVDs - hungarian
Arabian scarves
Something to make my headache stop
Somebody to finish my exams instead of me
Trent Reznor with a bow on his head under my covers
Especially the last two! ^^

Also I'd like to wish a very happy birthday to Trent Reznor, you helped a lot last year and I really miss you since then! Not to mention all the hard work you did. You never cease to amaze me and you're really important to me. :) See you soon! <3

Hope you're all doing well lovely F-list. I'm sorry I'm neglecting you. Try to cure this problem: real life, and I'll be here whenever you want!! <3

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NINE INCH NAILS

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Also, if you're interested in donating money to the "$300 for szoszo to buy a Special Hyper Deluxe Limited Edition of this record" group, please comment.

Thank You for Your patience.

I've been to a costume ball yesterday. But people were so lame that they didn't even put on costumes, just the bartenders and us. But nothing special happened. My first bus goes at 4:45am so I try to stay at least until 4am at a place but the others were hammered so we had to go back to a guy's place where we watched some South Park until 4. The ex of my best friend popped in and they locked themselves into a room and reminisced and cried. So at 4 Taki and me went home together and on the way home he tore a huge CSI:NY poster with Mac on it off a phonebooth for me!!! So cool!!! And huge!!! And funny since my mom is scared of Gary Sinise. XD XD It's gonna be on my door and supervise the corridor. Vehehhheeehehehhee.

The only problem is that my tonsills are swollen again. It wasn't exactly warm this morning so it didn't help my feeling unwell and by the time I got home I had to take this lidocaine candy or whatever the fuck and now they're all swollen and uncomfortable and if they get purulent again (sorry for the details) then they defo have to be taken out. I'm so sad and disapointed.

John Frusciante is so nice. I almost started to ramble about him but instead I hit backspace several times like Tom Hanks in 'You've Got Mail'. That film is also very nice. :D

I start to realise that the words connected to boredom are so fitting in my jornal because me and my entries are so boring. :D 'I do this to myself... I do... And that's why it really hurts...' :P

Arrgh. Not another bloody monday.

I feel so bad these days. When I get home, it's like all the energy just leaves me, I literally lie down in bed, stay there for the rest of the day and then wake up next morning. Not to mention I have a constant head ache these days. I know I should take up some sport or at least some kind of activity but... I had a huge row with my family. I wanted to copy a friends answers for a homework and they made this big deal out of it like it was actual plagiarism. And now they look at me like I at least stole kidneys or something. I should shower and at least think about what kind of classes I have tomorrow. I just missed kashmir87  on msn!!! T_T What a bloody horrible day. Also this great country and its educational and healthcare system want me dead. Apparently my school didn't tell the insurance people that I am a student so at the moment I don't have a healthcare insurance. But without my insurance number I don't get my scolarship money!!! ARGH!!! And I go from office to office to office and none of them can fix it!!! Novocaine is on viasat3. I ventured into the hungarian slash/yaoi fandom again this afternoon but it's so caothic and uncathegorized that I ventured back just as fast. Rumor says there are only 270 tickets left for The Hives concert which is physically impossible but I don't want to fall flat on my face, so I'll go buy it soon. I feel so lame. I'm off.

Thanks for all the people who found me interesting enough to friend me again, though I honestly don't know why they did. :D

szoszo --

[adjective]: Sexually stunning

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

L O L.

Yeah hey...

So I decided to close up my former journal, because I didn't feel like deleting everything and redo it. I wanted to create an all-new one and put down to some transcendental higher power the username szoszo was still free, which is a favourite nickname of mine given to me by my father. I'm in the midst of finding a custom mood theme and rejoining favourite groups but I decided to let my friends from the other lj decide if they still want to refriend me because I was pretty much absent in the last year or so.

Anyways it's the first week of my second semester at PTE (uni of Pécs), meaning last evening I went down in bed like I was shot in the head. I slept for 12 hours, the total of what I slept in the last 3 days! I had a perfect morning today editing this nice place. ^^ But my sister just got home claiming she's totally sick and I'm sure she expects us to obey her all day. Well my parents actually do but me, never. She went out yesterday, what does she expect? Well okay this is not normal hangover, must be stomach flu or something. But she's well aware that I have headphones on and she keeps talking to me just so she can yell at me and be all annoyed. -.-

My eyes hurt so much I had to turn off the screen brightness. 0.o This doesn't really happen to me a lot... I wanted to ask if you people who will be on my flist find LJTalk of any use because I still wonder if I should download it. I feel so weird. I think I slept too much and staying in bed all day didn't help either. Anyway I'm off to my favourite groups now. L8r.

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